Uneasy

A little odd, life is...

How can I say "I miss you" when that will only hurt? You, me, the "situation"? 

How can I keep it to myself when the words are bearing daggers onto my soul... nagging to come out. 

I can't... I won't be any more annoying than I have been so far. 

I will remain calm. I will shut the words, reign over the actions, close my soul, for when you look for them... If you do, that is. 

I'm fond to think that will happen, that you would put it past you and aim towards a better acquaintance, to let go on the fact i'm clingy, and needy, and almost unpleasant... Almost. 

So how would it be? 

I can change.. but that will take another fair amount of time. Like the first time. 

Or maybe I had not change a bit, and you have just learned to cope with my stubbornness... So far.

Is it really? 

How would I know...